Searching For My Identity| By Tori Savoy

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Who am I?

Have you ever looked in the mirror and asked yourself this question? Or laid awake in bed contemplating what defines you?

For me, this question really hit me hard right after college. I was diagnosed with a health condition that impacted my mind and my emotions. The hobbies that I once loved, I no longer had the desire or energy for. Many of the areas I excelled in became some of my biggest weaknesses.

The only thing I knew about myself was that I had Hashimotos, and that it made me hate myself. I felt as if I walked around with “Hashimotos” stamped on my forehead. It became the only thing I talked about because it engulfed the majority of my life.

When you’re at a point that low, it is so easy for the devil to stoop in and attack your weakness. I was meditating on who I was, and the enemy started to hurl his false lies at me.

“You are worthless. You are a downer. You are a burden to everyone around you. You will never be more than walking sickness,” he’d whisper to me.

And the lies just kept getting worse and worse.

But deep down, I knew these were lies, despite how true they felt. I cried to God “Who am I really? Who do you think I am?

You are a CHILD OF GOD!

I immediately began to cry.  Those words were so freeing for me.

“See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God” 1 John 3:1

“And if children, then heirs – heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him.”  Romans 8:17

Society has a way of placing stigmas or labels on us by categorizing who we are into negative groups such as nerdy, preppy, dumb, smart, goofy, quiet, fat, skinny, etc.

However, God looks on us and sees His child, each of us unique and just the way He created us to be.

“For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.” Ephesians 2:10

As His child, He sees me as more than just another human on this earth, and I have access to all of the benefits that come along with it. The few that immediately pop into mind are chosen, protected, and loved.

Instead of wearing negative labels society gives or the ones I give myself, I can choose to proudly live as His child by being joyful, caring, loving, forgiving, and all of the things that He is. When people meet me, I want them to know that I belong to Him.

“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. All who have this hope in him purify themselves, just as he is pure”John 3:1-3

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