Everyday there is bad news…
I mean, really bad news. Within the last week, I have learned of three crimes that, in a sense, have rattled me, scared me, and left me questioning God.
I have a lot of knowledge of God. Not saying I know it all, but I know all about what His word says about Him – His character, His love, and His sovereignty. I have even had revelation of His goodness in my own life. The good things that God has done in my life could literally tower to the size of a building.
But still, I find myself in this moment bewildered, scared, and confused about the very knowledge I know of God and the very experiences I have had with Him.
In the last week, I have learned through the news of a local pastor’s wife being carjacked, ran over, and killed. Secondly, I heard about a baby being disposed of in a garbage can. And lastly, just last night, I heard of a 52-year-old woman who while trying to help a homeless woman and her baby was stabbed to death. Stabbed….to….death.
When I heard that last story, it felt like the last straw. I wept, and I felt so so hurt by this.
“Then you may be the sons of your Father Who is in heaven. His sun shines on bad people and on good people. He sends rain on those who are right with God and on those who are not right with God.” – Matthew 5:45
I know God is good in the midst of the unforeseen growing bills happening in my life. I know God is good when I hear of incurable diseases my loved ones have. And I know God is good even when people die from things like cancer and other diseases.
But tragedies, I just do not understand.
Tragedy- an event causing great suffering, destruction, and distress, such as a serious accident, crime, or natural catastrophe.
As a Christian, how do I marry the idea of God’s goodness and the badness of tragedies?
In my heart, mind, and soul, I know I serve a God of miracles. MIRACLES…like He parts the sea, He raises the dead to life, He heals the sick. Yet tragedies still happen..Why?
As I have felt the grief and the weight just a tiny bit from being a spectator from the outside, my heart has ached for these people- the victims, their families, the perpetrators. I’ve cried for them, I’ve prayed for them, and I have questioned for them.
Today, I am reminded that God HATES murder. Also, any empathy or sympathy I feel for another human being is not because of my human nature, but because of my God nature through the Holy Spirit.
Tragedies happen and have happened for the entire duration of my 25-year-old lifespan. Why am I just now questioning tragedies?
Is it because of the first murder happened right in my city? Right down the street from my apartment and workplace?
That the baby thrown away reminds me of all the aborted fetuses that happen in my state?
That there are so many children in foster care who never get adopted?
And this last news story.
Did it affect me so much because I care so deeply for the homeless community? And knowing the woman stabbed to death while giving could have easily been me or any other caring person I know?
I am not sure. I think questions are good. Really, really good. I know God can handle them and longs to give me insight and direction.
The insight and direction that He’s given me on these tragedies is to PRAY.
Many of us are hurt by tragedy, bewildered by circumstances, and question God. This is fine, but we cannot stay there. If all we do is ask questions and complain about unforeseen tragedies, we miss God’s goodness in the midst of them.
I don’t understand tragedies, but I do know I serve a kind and loving God. These tragedies were a spiritual awakening for the call on my life and every woman and man of God to intercede and to pray for your city, state, region, country, and the world.
“Let me hear Your lovingkindness in the morning; For I trust in You; Teach me the way in which I should walk; For to You I lift up my soul.” – Psalm 143:8
Wherever there is ungodliness, carnality, and sin in History, you will find murder and tragedy…
The only way to change our city is to pray for godliness, revival, and love to run rampant there. Our prayers need to be less about us and more for this dying world.
I once read a quote that said, “If all of your prayers from last night, came true today would it change the world or would it just change yours?”
That’s a powerful statement/question that I think all of us should ask ourselves.
We serve a kind, kind God who serves selfish, selfish man. Let’s join Him in his kindness, mercy, and empathy for our cities, states, and country through communing with Him in prayer and bringing His love and light to a broken world.
“But as he came closer to Jerusalem and saw the city ahead, he began to weep. “How I wish today that you of all people would understand the way to peace. But now it is too late, and peace is hidden from your eyes. Before long your enemies will build ramparts against your walls and encircle you and close in on you from every side.They will crush you into the ground, and your children with you. Your enemies will not leave a single stone in place, because you did not recognize it when God visited you.” -Luke 19:41-44