A Long Now| By Jasmine Beard

Have you ever been right on the cusp of something?

Right on the brink of breakthrough?

And boom! 

A road block, an unexpected bolder, comes between you and your dream, your promise, and that thing you have longed for for so long?

I have been there.. far too many times to count.

Waiting has at times been the first symptom of me falling into a pattern of depressed thoughts. I would think maybe God loves the girl next to me a little bit more.

This is not true, but it can really, really feel this way at times.

I had marked June as the month of promises in my mind because that is what I thought God was telling me.

When I found out it was my month of promises, I wanted to strive to make all those things I have waited so long for come to pass. This left me feeling anxious, running out of breath, and confused as to why I could not make anything happen.

God is full of infinite wisdom. I am so thankful that He is not confined by time nor space and that He protects us from things we cannot handle when they are not in the proper season or not right for us at all.

In the midst of my anxiety and my own efforts, I became hopeless. It was not the normal hopelessness that leads to moping around and believing God had no plan for me, but it was a hopelessness that made me cry out to God like never before.

I confessed to Him,

“I don’t believe in your promises because they have not manifested in my life. Because of unbelief in that area, I get anxious and want to know the end result of everything. When I grow tired of anxiety, I cut the cord to what I don’t know the answers to and try to heal from my own self inflicted wounds of unfulfilled expectations. Then I find myself on the same vicious cycle of trying to rush the healing process and repeat the cycle in another situation in my life.”

This freed me in a way that I never knew existed. I could feel in my spirit how happy God was that I brought my truth and shattered heart to Him to heal and to nurture.

Living a life of a repeated pattern of depression when things do not go my way or the way I expected is a hard one to break.

I have once heard of waiting as “a long now. While waiting could end tomorrow or ten years from now, it is still a long now.

Instead of throwing a fit about how long I have waited or how much longer I have to wait, I am now focusing on the long now that allows God to work on me and heal me from the inside out.

We have never arrived or ever gotten too mature in the Lord that will make Him not want to continue to mature, deliver, and heal us.

“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.” Philippians 1:6 (NLT)

So June did not turn out like I had expected, but I can now say it turned out even better!

I had long ago prayed that I would be different from the past generations in my family. I prayed that I would not fall into the same patterns and traps in my life as other family members. I prayed that I would set a new standard and that I would not pass certain things along to my one day children and grandchildren.

God has answered that promise in freeing me from a cycle of hopelessness that led to depression. I will no longer pass  this onto my children.

Not to long ago, I received a prophetic word that blessed me that I want to share with you.

“I see you being a legacy changer. I feel like you are changing legacy in your family. You’re saying the ball stops here and from here on out your generations, your legacy is going to be so highlighted in your life. You are going to leave a legacy for your children, and I just see generations of generations of generations passed from you. It’s like God is setting a new course for the generations. Generations that will know the Lord and will walk with Him and that would just be set apart.”

I hope that word blessed you as much as it blesses me. You may be in a long wait right now, but I want to encourage you to see what God is doing right now and what dreams He is making come true no matter how big or small they may seem.

Healing Comes in Desperation|By Jasmine Beard


“I have touched the hem of Your garment.

I have felt the leading of Your hand.

But today, my eyes look much higher to see the face of the great I am…”

I love that song. As I sing those words, I often imagine myself as the woman with the issue of blood in the Bible.

Just like the woman with the issue of blood, we all have an issue, a dream, or a desperation to see Jesus show up, heal, and change our circumstance.

That issue may be for healing from an illness, conceiving a child after years spent battling infertility, the salvation of a child or spouse, or maybe freedom from repetitive bondage in life.

My issue is not something life altering or something I cannot live without, but a deferred promise. This promise God spoke to me when I was just 17-years old, the promise of marriage. My circumstance is much different from an unexplained issue of blood, but it’s still my circumstance.

It is the one thing in my life that I have often shied away from. Shied away from talking about. Shied away from writing about. And shied away from praying about. My issue, if you’d call it that, has oftentimes been something that embarrassed me rather than brought me into a place of desperation for Jesus to heal me.

Luke 8:43-48 TPT says:

43 In the crowd that day was a woman who had suffered greatly for twelve years from slow bleeding. Even though she had spent all that she had on healers, she was still suffering.

44 Pressing in through the crowd, she came up behind Jesus and touched the tassel of his prayer shawl. Instantly her bleeding stopped and she was healed.

45 Jesus suddenly stopped and said to his disciples, “Someone touched me. Who is it?”

While they all denied it, Peter pointed out, “Master, everyone is touching you, trying to get close to you. The crowds are so thick we can’t walk through all these people without being jostled.”

46 Jesus replied, “Yes, but I felt power surge through me. Someone touched me to be healed, and they received their healing.”

47 When the woman realized she couldn’t hide any longer, she came and fell trembling at Jesus’ feet. Before the entire crowd she declared, “I was desperate to touch you, Jesus, for I knew if I could just touch even the fringe of your robe I would be healed.”

48 Jesus responded, “Beloved daughter, your faith in me has released your healing. You may go with my peace.”

Recently, I turned 26-years-old, just five days after Valentine’s Day. I have never noticed or cared about my birthday’s proximity to this love holiday, until this year.

This was the first year, ever… that I thought, “I wish I had a valentine”.

I quickly shrugged off those feelings, but could sense through the busyness of life that I was a bit disheartened by this. And that I had actually been hiding these feelings for years.

I did not want to tell Jesus how I felt. I knew my singleness wasn’t His fault. I knew that I could trust Him at His word. I knew He was a promise-keeper. Yet, I was still sad, but I didn’t want to admit that to God. I felt it would be ungrateful to do so.

That is when the Holy Spirit whispered into my heart, “tell me how you feel. Whether you think your feelings are just or not, tell me. I want to heal every part of your heart.”

Just like God cared about the woman with the issue of blood and longed to heal her from illness, He also longed to heal my aching heart. He wanted me to stop hiding in the crowd pretending like singleness did not make me sad.

He wanted me to press through the crowd and say, “Jesus, I have a problem, and I know that you are the solution.”

When healing takes longer than expected or when hope has been deferred, it can sometimes feel easier not to pray about a situation anymore. The women with the issue of blood however, did not lose hope. She held unto the promise of God’s healing, and she knew He would touch her situation.

God longed for me to get real about my issue and get desperate for the healing He desired to do in my heart. He wanted me to be desperate enough to touch the hem of His garment just as the woman with the issue of blood did.

Maybe you have been battling something for years. And year after year, you have seen no avail to your circumstance. I want to encourage you to be persistent and unembarrassed by your circumstance. Will you still run after Him when that healing takes longer than expected? Will you still hope when hope is deferred? Will you touch the hem of His garment because you know He has the power and desire to change your situation?

I leave you with these verses. These verses remind me of the faithfulness of God and display the very character of who He is.

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭41:10‬ ‭NLT‬‬

“Nevertheless, the time will come when I will heal Jerusalem’s wounds and give it prosperity and true peace.” Jeremiah‬ ‭33:6‬ ‭NLT‬‬

“And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:19‬ ‭NLT‬‬

“But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40:31‬ ‭NLT‬‬

“Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires.” Psalms‬ ‭37:4‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Dealing with Depression During the Holidays| By Jasmine Beard

From our family to yours MERRY CHRISTMAS!

‘Tis the season for family, yuletide carols, loneliness and depression. What?! Unfortunately, here at Unveiling Eden, we know that the holidays can be an exciting time for some, but also a dreaded season for others- especially if a person does not have family, friends or a significant other to celebrate with.

If you are feeling or dealing with depression this Holiday Season, we want you to know that you are not alone. We want to encourage you to share with someone how you are feeling. Often times, when we share our emotions with just one individual the weight of our feelings can be easier to bare.

Also, if you can push through the crippling effects of depression for a moment and give back, we believe your spirits will be uplifted this Holiday Season. Whether, it be volunteering at a homeless shelter, Christmas caroling at a nursing home, or by simply calling someone who doesn’t have loved ones. We know when we take our eyes off our circumstances and focuses on the needs of others, it can at times change our own perspective.

Lastly, we’d like to encourage you to read and meditate on the word of God. His word is full of promises and encouragement that He has purposed for all of us. Take the scriptures down below as a gift from us to you, and a gift from God to you, as well.

Psalm 30:11 

You have turned for me my mourning into dancing; you have loosed my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness,

Deuteronomy 31:8 

It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”

Isaiah 40:31 

But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

Philippians 4:13 

I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

John 16:33 

I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.

Isaiah 41:10 

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Matthew 11:28 

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

Jeremiah 29:11 

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Proverbs 3:5-6 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

Also check out our latest video discussing this very topic.