In the desert as I squint my eyes and shield the sun with my hand, I can see Him standing there full of all the life I’m lacking.
“JESUS,” I scream, wanting to cry but not being able to shed a tear because of my internal drought.
“Yes, my girl,” He answers as He waves from a distance.
“Jesus, I need you! I’m so thirsty. Could you help me?” I scream in desperation, trying to muster the strength to walk towards Him.
“Yes I can,” He expresses joyfully, “all you’ve got to do is drop everything and come to me.”
For a moment, I just stare at Him trying to imagine how He expects me to leave it all behind. Instead, I try to walk toward Him, all my possessions still in tow, but the further I walk the further He seems to be.
I cry out to Him again, and He gently responds “Just stop, stay where you are.”
I stand still, relieved to be taking a break as I listened carefully to His voice.
“I will throw you this rope, grab hold of it, and you will have all you need. Forget the things you have. This is all you need.”
I cannot tell you why I dreamed this a few nights ago (mainly because I have never been a dreamer).
In seeking God for clarification, I believe He was speaking to me about a spiritual drought. My heart and soul were empty because I have only focused on giving out what I know, instead of continually receiving all He has for me. I only focus on gaining knowledge to spread instead receiving more of His love and grace.
My pride has cost me my showers of blessings in this season. He has revealed to me that my spiritual growth and life comes from the living water He provides. I can only bloom from the showers He brings. I need Him and only Him – not my theology, my fancy words, or my biblical history.
“Ask the Lord for rain in the spring, for he makes the storm clouds. And he will send showers of rain so every field becomes a lush pasture.” Zechariah 10:1 (NLT)
In every dry season, He is helping me. There is pruning occurring everyday with the promise of bountiful lakes in the future. I pray for God to mold me and grow me, not fully expecting what He will provide. Unprepared for the bountiful things He sends my way, I only accept a small portion – what I feel I need at the moment. What I’m learning is that it will never be enough unless I accept the fullness of all He has to offer.
“You sent abundant rain, O God, to refresh the weary land.” Psalms 68:9 (NLT)
God always provides in abundance, and it is always exactly what we need. He, being all knowing, decides what is best for us and then sends it to us at just the right time. He sustains us; He is all we need.
Surrender your thoughts to Him. Pray for your rain and stand on the Lord’s promises and His truths in the meantime. And in your dry seasons, simply let go of all you have and grab hold of all of Him.