Sit at the Feet of Jesus| By Kristen Mamou

“I am not ready,” was my first thought when my alarm went off.

The day before had been trying, to say the least. It was one of those days my children had been “off the chain.” One kid had undecorated the Christmas tree, another colored on my hall closet door (the one you see when you first walk in my house, yep that one), and my once barely clean house was in shambles.

I drove to Michael’s later that same evening with my hubby and kids in tow. We got in the store, and I realized I put the keys in the diaper bag and then decided not to bring the diaper bag in. Yeah, you guessed it. We were locked out of the car.

When we finally made it home, way later than expected, my frustration level was at an all time high, my taunting insecurities rising up. I quickly put everyone in bed, and I followed shortly.

All of these memories from just the day before flooded my mind as I hit the 6:10 AM snooze button. I was already aggravated, and the day had not even started.  

Have you ever been there before? You have not even started your day, and you are already frustrated and aggravated. 

I turned on some worship music and began to try and quiet my spirit. I had no words to pray, but just reminded God that today I needed his grace and strength. 

This scripture came to me: “My grace is sufficient, my strength is made perfect in your weakness.” 2 Corinthian 12:9 (NIV)

Mommying (as I call it) is hard. If you are married, being a wife is hard. Just holding down your job and career is hard.

There are days where I am sure you feel like me and that, no matter how hard you try, you are failing, falling short of your goals. God reminds me in those times that it is when His grace is most evident in my life.

Those times are when He wants me to lean on Him. 

James 1:2 (KJV), reminds us to “count it all joy when we go through trials and temptations, because it works patience in us.” 

The day to day life trials are designed to work patience inside of us, but even more so, to draw us closer to God. I know I need His strength and His grace to be the mom, wife, and ministry leader He has called me to be. I cannot do it without Him, so it forces me to be right where He wants me all along sitting at His feet.

Sitting at the feet of Jesus is where I find grace, strength, and His wisdom to get through my day, to be a wife, a mom, and the many other hats that I wear. As I sit at His feet, He reminds me who I am and whose I am. I can vanquish the lies of the enemy in His presence, those insecurities begin to fade away as He reminds me that His banner over me is love.

Today, I do not know what you are going through or what trials you are facing, but I can tell you that His grace is sufficient for you.

Stop, take a moment and just sit at His feet. As the hustle and bustle of the holiday season come to an end, do not be like Martha so busy that you do not have time to sit at the feet of Jesus. Today, take the time to sit as His feet and allow Him to strengthen you and give you His grace to be what He has called you to be. 

If we are going to be successful mamas, wives, career women, or whatever our title may be, let us choose the best thing, sitting at the feet of Jesus.

It Gets Better: A Letter to the Old Me| By Emily Lawson

Dear Old Me,

I see you. I feel your anxiousness. I feel your worry; how deep it goes in your chest. I know that your head tries to tell you that you need to lose that weight. I know it tells you that you are not as pretty as her. I know it tells you that you do not have the skills. 

I know it tells you that they do not care. 

And I also know it keeps those words on a repeat soundtrack at all hours. Day and night. 

I also know what you have been through. You have overcome so many things already. You’ve been to the darkest of days and back in your life.

Yet, that lonely feeling stands. It reminds you every day of the times you have failed and been failed by others. Your mind tells you that God has no idea where you are. You are one in millions. There is no way that He can feel the need to help you. 

But, honey, God sees you as ‘one in a million’. You are unique and perfect. He created the you that you are and cares enough to send His only son to die on a cross for YOU. God is so much greater than the thoughts that the devil puts in your head. 

My grace is sufficient for thee; for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 (KJV)

That means YOUR weakness.

His strength is the PERFECT thing that comes from admitting the weakness you feel. 

Your significant other is not always available. Your best friend needs sleep, too. Your social media friends will not quite get it on the level you need.

Your mind is a dangerous prison, love.

Mentally: It holds you in a controlled environment and in some ways that provides comfort. You are in a place that is familiar, and you have grown used to the numbness. It is mostly in your control. But on bad days, you just need to reach a little further than it is letting you, and the chains around your neck dig a little deeper. That restraint makes you feel like you are never going to make it out alive. 

Physically: You are tired. And not an “Oh I couldn’t sleep last night” tired, but an “I can feel it in my bones, and it isn’t going to change” tired. You are tired of faking the smile for others. You are tired of trying so hard to be “normal”, and it is weighing down your shoulders and making it harder to get out of bed. 

You need help.

And asking for help does not mean that you have failed. It means that you have WON. It means that you have finally stepped back, let go of control, and held to the hand of Jesus to drag you out of the pit that your head has held you captive in all this time.

Now, listen to Him. 

Rebuke the devil from off your back. Tell him he has no place. Take hold of your Savior’s hand and let him break those chains. 

Get out there. Seek the help. Talk to the doctor. Take the medication. Get on the path that helps you be the best you. 

For your family. 

For yourself.

For Jesus.

Recovery is a road, but you have got a friend to walk down it with you. Through each step, He will place your foot. Each bump, He catches your arm. Trust in Him.  

It can and WILL get better. I am telling you from the other side.

Your mental health is so important, and you are worth every bit of effort. 

Never forget that. 

Love, New Me

Follow Emily’s Instagram @the_modest_wife and/or email her at modest.wife@gmail.com.

When I Am Weak He Is Strong| By Jasmine Beard

“I don’t want to strive for your love anymore God.


I am so sick and tired of wanting you to be proud of me because of my actions.


Am I doing a good job?


Maybe if I could stop being such a screw up, you’d love me.”

This was me less than a month ago gushing out my heart in bewilderment to God. I had a commitment to share for a ministry in less than two days, and I felt as though I was literally about to lose my mind.

Why you may ask? The answer is simple I felt inadequate and as though I had nothing to share. On top of this, I felt distant from God.

I thought of how someone else could do so much of a better job at sharing for this ministry than myself.

I knew my feelings were rooted in the spirit of pride, but I asked the Lord “where does my insecurity stem from?”

I remember growing up in school and having no problem sharing in front of the class

(I was quite the ham), but after grade school and into college years, I had become more reserved, more self-aware, and more insecure than I had ever been before.

As I pondered on that thought, the Holy Spirit told me, “when you feel inadequate it’s because you are not leaning into the reliance of the Holy Spirit.”

For as long as I can remember, my life verse, or the verse that the Holy Spirit whispers to my heart the most often, is Proverbs 3:5-6 it says,

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.”

You would think with how many times the Lord has whispered that into my spirit, I would have it down pat by now, but nope.

In my mind, all I could think about was how I was not doing all of the things..

You know, the praying for hours soaking in His presence kind of things.

Or reading the Bible for hours on end.

I have always been a perfectionist, a doer, a striver, a hard worker, a go-getter of sorts. While at times this mindset has helped me throughout my life, other times it has been one of my biggest downfalls, especially in my walk with Christ.

You may be thinking what is wrong with wanting to be perfect or being a hard worker? Essentially, nothing is wrong with either of those qualities, but the truth is I am not perfect, and there is nothing I can do to become perfect.

When I feel the need to perform or to be perfect, it is because I have stepped away from simply abiding in the Father. Abiding in Him means I take off all of the pressure I place on myself to be perfect and lean into the Perfect God who has infinite love, wisdom and strength for all of life’s circumstances.

“Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5 (NLT)

There is so much safety in relying on God and not myself. The Bible tells us in our weakness He is strong. The truth is we are all screw-ups, but God loves us in the midst of all of our garbage, setbacks, and failures.

So those two days came and went, it was finally my turn to share with the women of that ministry. I walked into that opportunity with no nerves, and no sense to perform. I simply shared of God’s goodness, relied on Him, and gave Him all the glory He deserves.

Girlfriend, let me tell you, it is not about you. It has never been about you, and it will never be about you. So do that thing that scares you, do that thing that God has called you to, do that thing that requires you to step out of your own reasoning and strength and rely on God to do the work.

If we are going to accomplish anything for God, we have to remember it is for His name’s sake. It is so His name will be glorified and that all will know of His unwavering love for them.

But Christ proved God’s passionate love for us by dying in our place while we were still lost and ungodly! Romans 5:8 (TPT)